It’s Saturday night, and I’m engaged in the coolest activity of them all. Studying. Or actually, not even studying. Just sitting on my bed thinking about how I should be studying and wishing that I was learning something, but not making the effort to crack open a book. I’ve had a rather uninspired couple of days when I’ve only left the house to go to school, and left school to go back home. To studying.
The living room is littered with what seems like a gazillion binders times two (one set for me, one set for my roommate). Personal hygiene is starting to become a thing of the past (and I consider this carefully as I scratch my itchy scalp). Actually, that’s a lie. I go through phases of cleanliness. If I’m successful in studying, I don’t shower because simply dragging myself away from the desk or bed or couch seems too much work and not worth the 30 minutes it would take to clean, dry, lotion, and clothe myself. Although this time inevitably ends up being spent on Facebook at 5 minute intervals every 10 minutes instead. Inevitably, I become bored. And by bored, I mean Facebook and Youtube can no longer entertain me in the “breaks I take between studying” (although what I actually engage in is “studying I take between breaks”). Then I shower. And I shower again. And I wax my legs. And I wash my face. And I brush my teeth. And floss. Then eat a cracker. And brush my teeth again. And floss again. It’s amazing how cleaning could actually consume hours and hours at a time.
Sometimes, I don’t turn to cleaning when I hit that rough spot. I fidget, tip the chair back, then tip it forward. Then think about Man Downstairs who’ll revenge on me for making the noise and creep in through my open window slit and slowly choke me with his bare hair-speckled freakishly large hands. I sigh loudly and make silent screams that really freak my roommate out because they’re at some strange frequency that travels great distances and she always hears them even though three walls and a door separate us. Then I make some other scary noises that really shouldn’t be coming from humans at all, at least not ones that are still alive.
It’s not just activities that become altered during this period, either. I made my first MacDonald’s trip since the December 2009 with unkempt hair, no makeup, ripped jeans (not the fashionable kind) and a cat-hair laden sweatshirt I normally wouldn’t be caught dead with outside the house. Is it sad that I’m already planning a second trip? A McNugget trip involving a 10-piece meal is in the works. We shall see how long I can hold up under the pressure and resist the temptation. Place your bets, everyone!
The last and truly depressing turn in life actually happens at night. Normally, I have fairly vivid dreams that I may or may not remember in the morning. They often involve food, hot air balloons, crossing the street, and giant balls of fire hurling down onto Earth from some distant galaxy. But once exams hit, I no longer have dreams, I have nightmares. Take Wednesday night. I had spent the evening reading up on an incredibly enjoyable topic of bladders and urine. Just fascinating how many reasons there are for someone to have incontinence and dribble. That night, I went to bed as per usual, just before the midnight mark in my comfy pj’s and the 3 layers of blankets that keep me warm. The next thing I know, I’m talking to a couple of faceless blurry classmates about some medical problems I had been having. Some pee-related medical problems. Apparently, I was peeing over 140 L a day! Consulting with my friends, I expressed great concern at this rather daunting volume. Being knowledgeable first years, they questioned me on my electrolytes, and apparently found out that my sodium levels were normal. So they patted me on the back, told me 140L wasn’t such a big deal, and that I was just fine. And then I woke up.
What the heck??
This level of invasion of studying is simply unacceptable! I was beyond annoyed that school had taken over my subconscious and was actually making me a books-controlled zombie. Why couldn’t I dream about Hawaii or more hot air balloons or Gerard Butler? Or being with Gerard Butler in a hot air balloon over Hawaii? Even flaming balls of fire would have been preferable. Perhaps I should plan my bedtime reading better next time…